another year gone...

I can't believe how fast 2009 has flown by! It seems like yesterday I was sleeping the New Years Eve night away last year in 08'. haha Looking back at all my old blogs I read over one that talked about how excited I was for 2009 to change my life. Am I a psychic or what?! haha So to keep up with my tradition I shall recap some of the highlights of my year.

January to February were two slightly uneventful months. I started my classes and made new friends.

January 11th - Melinde and I meet Perez Hilton. I expected him to be a lot nicer than he really was. But he was still nice. Does that make sense?

February 17th - Danielle and I attend a meeting that changes our lives completely.

March 1st - Christina and I kicked off our concert calendar with We The Kings and The Maine. We make our return to Chubby Rain House of Tunes and freeze our butts off.

March 8th - I take my mom to see David Archuleta in concert. It was....interesting to say the least.

March 13th - Christina and I have our first ever guestlist experience and we see Valencia. "We all need a reason to believe."

I recieve my acceptance into the Disney College Program. My life as I knew it had changed.

April 4th - Craig Owens does a solo acoustic tour. It blows me away. We met Fred Mascherino from the Color Fred. he does a TBS song and I die a little.

April 10-11th - Bill Beckett does an acoustic tour. One show in Champaign, one in Chicago. Both amazing.

April 24th - The Academy Is... do a few college shows in the south suburb area. With Butcher on bass it was a different kind of show. Without Sisky it felt off but it was interesting to see the Butcher out from behind his drum kit.

May 1-3rd - I make a triumphant return to New Jersey for the Bamboozle! This year I added Hoodwink to my schedule and was glad I did. Michelle and I had front row for an entire stage all night. Amazeballs. No Doubt played their second show since reuniting. I am blown away.

May 13th - Another Academy Is... college show. I won an Octo Drive and everyone became jealous of me that day.

June and July were spent mostly in summer school and working. I had to save $$ for Disney after all!

July 10th - Christina and I and my little cousins see the Jonas Brothers. SWEEET CAROLINEEEE BAH BAH BAAAAAH!

July 31st - Christina and I head out to Six Flags to see Gym Class Heroes, Boys Like Girls and yes...The Academy Is... play a show. Totally random.

August 1st - Warped Tour! We managed to get a job working catering for two hours and met nearly all the bands we wanted. Alex Gaskarth drank a smoothie Christina and I made for him. The 3OH!3 guys didn't want our smoothies and they regret it to this day. ;) bahaha We hardly saw any bands due to catering but I finally saw You, Me and Everyone We Know after Christina has begged me to see them for the past year and a half. This is the last time we see Craig Owens with Chiodos.

August 7-9th - LOLLAPALOOZA! I managed to snag a three day pass for $60. We see so many bands I feel like I can die happy. Kings of Leon, The Yeah Yeah Yeah's, Snoop Dogg, and The Killers are among the highlights.

August 15th - Officially the best concert I've been to in my history of going to concerts. Christina and I manage to get the barricade for the Blink 182 reunion tour. I have no words. I'm simply speechless.

August 16th - I leave everything I've ever known behind and begin my drive to Orlando to start my Disney Internship.

August 19th - I am officially a Disney cast member. I move into my apartment and meet five of the most amazing girls in the world...my roommates. Chosen at random.

I start my job at Once Upon a Toy. I'm thrilled I don't have to deal with clothing. A breath of fresh air.

I form a friendship so strong from the start that without her now, I don't think I'll be able to breathe.

Life at Disney is amazing. I get into the parks for free and take full advantage of that privellege.

September 14th - I finally turn 21! I get so drunk I puke and pass out! Typical 21st brithday of course. I celebrate hungover the next day with my neighbors.

September 15th - Candice and I discover I-bar. We now have a place to spend our Tuesday nights. Gritz and Gravy officially becomes our jam.

October 25th - Candice and I see Hey Monday, We The Kings and All Time Low at the House of Blues. We managed to meet Cassadee and Mike from Hey Monday and Hunter from We The Kings. We were however, unsuccessful at getting a threesome with Jack.

October 27th - The show I've waited for since I started my internship. The AP Tour Fall Ball featuring The Academy Is... Candice finally gets to meet the band (well Bill, Mike and Chiz.) I'm happy.

November 7th - Boys Like Girls, Cobra Starship, The Maine and A Rocket To The Moon stop through on some OP tour?! Bryan Donahue is a total cutie in person. Alex Suarez remembers our "...oh hey" bit from last years warped tour. we take the cutest picture EVER!

November 14th - Betsy turns 21. There is much celebration. Perhaps too much?

November 25th - Candice and I see Cartel and fall in LOVE with This Providence. Seriously you guys should check them out. They are a band to watch out for in the new year for sureeee. I run into the guitarist for Cartel at Ibar later that evening. I don't wanna talk about that. haha

November 27th - I celebrate Thankgiving without my family this year but it's all good.

I dyed my hair brown sometime early December.

December 15th - We finally get our graduation ears! It starts setting in that we're leaving.

December 19-25th - After five months I'm finally reunited with my family. We spend Christmas at All-Star Sports. Classy I know.

December 27th - And so begins my week at Animal Kingdom working in Asia at Expedition Everest.

December 29th - I turn into a blubbering idiot at our second to last night at ibar when Bohemiam Rhapshody is played. I can't imagine how I'll be next week. Hopefully more or less intoxicated.

and so here I am. It's 1:24 in the morning and I'm finishing this blog. This year really has been the most amazing of my life. This experience has changed my life in so many ways. and I'll be sad to leave next week. but that's a seperate blog in itself. untill then...2010...show me what you got!

my eyes.

if only you could see me in the light.
these dark lit rooms do me no justice.
I'm vibrant and enthusiastic.
if you looked into my eyes you'd see that I'm genuine.
put down the drinks.
take off the dancing shoes.
remove the temptation of a steady beat and just see me.
I'm ready to fall in love.

The end is near...

I can't get over how fast time has flown by! It feels like yesterday I was moving into my apartment and meeting my roommates. This experience has changed my life. And I can't wait to reflect on these past few months. Lately things have been really good. Our apartment has a tree and we all have stockings. I've been getting along real well with my roommates. And I've been trying to have as much fun as possible before I return to bitter winter cold. I don't have much else to talk about. We're getting another roommate tomorrow since Cat left. It seems silly to put someone in a house with people who are already so bonded and are leaving in a month. According to my calendar we've got only 4 or 5 more tuesdays left to enjoy ibar. I'm gonna miss it so! Haha

Till next time...

P.s. I dyed my hair brown! Pics to come later.

our days were numbered by nights.

photobooth photo ^^

I'm sitting in Candice's room waiting for her to get ready, we're going to Magic Kingdom for a while. We saw Cartel last night and I ran into one of the guys at the bar later in the evening. I don't remember much of our encounter but I'm sure I made a fool of myself. I've been made a fool of a lot lately and I don't know why I don't defend myself more. From here on out no more. Don't get me wrong I will stand up for myself but there are some people who I should stand up to and don't. i can't explain it.

I lost my ID and Credit Card at the bar last night. and can't get a hold of anyone who may know if it's still at the bar. i hate waiting and being in anticipation. it's awful. hopefully it can be recovered.

for now....off to magic kingdom.

everything's magic

the beauty of the holidays is beinging to sweep over Disney. The castle is decorated and all of the parks have shit EVERYWHERE! it makes me really homesick. I need to start shopping for everyone. I found the PERFECT gift for my mom. I'm so excited to get it for her and I think she'll really like it.

I get to chat with Christina tomorrow. our lives are so crazed we have to schedule phone calls!

I don't understand why I always get stuck with duds. When I went to Eastern, the roommate I was with turned on me. And now, we don't speak. This time around, there are five of them, soon to be four, and I can't penetrate their bond. I'm days away from possibly having a room to myself! I don't want to get my hopes up but it could happen. That makes me wonder, will I always be in a room by myself? Is it me that can't be lived with? It's possible. I'm a clean, mature, responsible person. Is that a hard combo to deal with?

Candice and I went to ibar this past Thursday. So fun. I met a guy there named Stuart. He was a cutie. I hope I see him again on Tuesday. Betsy turned 21 so she can finally join us for Gritz and Gravy nights!

I'm procrastinating this paper I have to write, but it's time to get down to business.

expirations

Can't log into the SLH website because my subscribtion expired. Damn. I can't afford to renew it right now. So I'll have to live without updates for a few months. Thanksgiving is in a few weeks. It's going to be weird not seeing my family. Or meeting my new cousin. I get to work at my store tomorrow! I'm really excited about it. There's not much to update on. We've just been enjoying our time here. Lately I've been paranoid that I wont be able to afford gifts for my family for xmas. That means I need to cut back on spending money on stupid things like food I don't need. Bye bye Mickey D's! haha And less drinks at the bar of course. :( haha. I'll have to start getting other people to buy my drinks from now on. Wish me luck.

maybe its a fall from grace

tonight candice and i saw cobra starship and boys like girls. so good. we met alex suarez, bryan donahue, and nick santino, all from different bands, all pretty cool. candice has been sick the past few days. hopefully she's back to normal soon. I'm currently trying to get all the TAITV episodes for her so she has some awesome entertainment for the next few days while she's stuck in bed. I'm working at Pooh Corner this week but according to my boss I'll be going back to my original store next week. I've been on such an emotional roller coaster all over a stupid work location! its just, working at this Pooh Corner really makes me think horrible thoughts. it just brings out the bad in me. it brings out someone that I left back in Illinois at Carson Pirie Scott. I'm not ready to go back to being that person just yet. I'm not sure if I want to go back at all. This program has gone by so quickly! I can't believe it's already November! I basically have a month left here! I'm so torn between wanting to stay and wanting to go. i feel like this is sort of home now. but, I'm actually excited to go back home and experience this thing called snow that floridians just dont get, and im excited to start school again. i'm really happy with the classes i picked out and hopefully I get them come registration time. i cant wait to see all my friends and family and even set foot into my old job and see everyone. it will all be bittersweet. until then, I'm going to enjoy the rest of my time here.

This was taken outside the House of Blues in Orlando. Doesn't he just look so happy to see me?! haha He made fun of my jersey cause Grossman doesn't play for the Bears. But he was happy I was showing support for the home team. We almost convinced him and Mike to come out to i-bar with us but they had an early bus call that day. Major bummer. Candice really enjoyed herself. I'm glad. We were second row for the show stuck behind the most hyper-active of girls you could ever imagine. Pandemonium. I went to the meet and greet by myself. Talk about awkward turtle. Only really talked to Butcher, Mike, and Bill. Oh well. Afterwards we went to I-bar and I truly think it was the most fun we've all had there ever. I probably say that alot but it was a genuine good time.

It looks like rain outside. Better bring out the umbrella.

I've very much enjoyed my time here in Orlando. But lately I've been having these vivid flashbacks. Its always the same kind. I'll flashback to the same place. I'll see the same faces. For the past two and a half weeks. I was working at a store here different than my normal toy store. The store is called Pooh Corner and it deals mainly with Winnie the Pooh merchandise and CLOTHING! At first I had only been there one day a week or not at all. But now its becoming all day. Working at this store has caused me to not only have crazy flashbacks, its causing me to revert back to my old mean self. I'm not a friendly person when I'm at this store. It has been such a tease for me to have worked at Once Upon a Toy if now all I'll be doing is working at this new store. I don't know what else I could say that makes sense or something understandable. Basically, I could make $2 more back home doing the same job I do at Pooh Corner.

I'm going back to bed. Sam's friend Carlos woke us up at 8am!

The Academy Is... was amazing btw. We almost convinced Mike and Bill to come out to the bar with us.

i'm yours tonight.

if you're a girl like me you have that one dream. the dream where you're watching a band and a member will just look at you and fall in love. i still wait for that day. sometimes i feel like its not too far away and others i feel it's unreachable.

the all time low concert was so much fun! i thoroughly enjoyed myself. I felt like a total grandma because everyone else was 16 and under. we met some of the members of hey monday and we the kings afterwards. cassadee is so sweet! and jersey remember the photograph from the house of blues ^^ mike practically wanted to make out with us. haha just kidding. or am i? we saw Hunter from We The Kings. he was drunk and very friendly. I'm seeing the Academy Is... today. I'm so excited I might pee my pants. For now I'll just go to bed and get some rest for the day ahead of me. Oh and I have class. FUCK!

writings in the dark.

I'm sitting in my room and Blair is asleep. I'm always worried that my typing is gonna wake her. Today was an amazingly fun day. Candice's friend Matt came to visit her and we went to Animal Kingdom today. So fun. So many good pictures. It was nice to stay in the hotel with Matt and Candice for two nights. No roommates! Just good company. Tomorrow Candice and I are seeing All Time Low. I'm really excited. They've always impressed me when I've seen them. I'm considering this the first real time I'm seeing them since the only other times I have it's been at Warped Tour or Bamboozle. It'll be nice to see them indoors and in a smaller crowd. Lately I've been so lonely. I never have this problem at home. I'm surrounded by good people. And I'm not saying that I'm not surrounded by good people here because I am, but I'm ready to be loved by someone. I'm ready to let myself fall in love...

I recieved an email the other day with a wonderful piece of writing attached. To the person that sent this to me, thank you. I just wish it was someone else that sent it. I don't understand how someone I barely see and speak to can pull me in so much. There's just something about this person that I'm wildly attracted to and I haven't felt attraction like this in a very long time. To the person that sent me the email, I'm sorry. Something I did must have given you the wrong idea. My friends say I shouldn't blame myself but I can't help it.

I can't go on anymore. For now I will sleep. Tomorrow is too important of a day for me to be fussing over things I have no control over. I'm sorry again. But there are four guys that need my total and complete undivided attention tomorrow. And I'm not trying to make myself sound like a whore. It's just the band and I've been waiting for this day since I arrived here in Orlando. I finally get to see what House of Blues is made of. Is it better than Chicago...I'll let you know.

worlds away

Today was such a good day at work! Too many laughs. When I got home there was a letter waiting for me from Melinde. So good to hear from her. Pen palsss! haha I'm currently listening to the AP Podcast of the 2009 AP tour. Part of me wishes I saw a show on this tour. Oh well. Things at Disney are good again. I'm not sick anymore which is AWESOME! haha I felt like I was on my death bed! I can't wait for Tuesday. Candice and I are having a Candice and Ashley day since I was un-able to have it last week for her bday. I planned an amazing surprise that I know she'll love! More on that later. Also, I'm stoked to go back to i-bar on Tuesday. It's been a week too long. I'm actually starting to get a little homesick. :( I miss my mom and dad and of course my bro. And most importantly...my cat! haha There's a stray that I've been taking care of down here but she doesn't compare to Hershey. Hershey lets me cuddle with her! haha I also kinda miss my old work family. Don't miss the actual job. haha Don't miss the customers. haha But I'm really missing the peeps. baha. Candice and I have two shows we're going to next week. All Time Low and The Academy Is... I'm really excited for both. Hoping to get some new pics with the TAI boys. I'll post of course. Candice is on her way. Haven't seen her in a while! Laterrrr!

Speechless

I guess I could have updated before the insanity began. My apologies. This past Monday evening, I came down with the flu. Had a fever, body aches, the usual. It is now Saturday morning and I'm still running fevers and I've got a whole mess more of problems on my list. We're talking sore throat and ears, hives from my medicine and a pain that makes it so hard to walk and sit down. On top of it all, my roommates aren't helping at all. They show little to no concern over my illness and continue to leave our apartment in a messy state. How hard is it to clean up after yourself? Its 2am on Saturday and there is still spilt brown sugar on the counter from a pie that was made yesterday morning! How old are we? I truly feel the only reason I've not begun to see a change in my health is because I live with slobs. So tomorrow I think I'm gonna talk to my parents about getting a cheap hotel for two nights to try and relax and heal in peace. I'll let you know how that goes. Till then...

"There's a light on in Chicago and I know I should be home"

sitting here on Candice's bed using her macbook. she's getting ready for work. i have the day off. i woke up at like three today. it felt great. probably not gonna be too helpful tomorrow when I have class at 8 am, whatever I'll suffer through I guess. I'm going to Blizzard Beach after class tomorrow so I'll sleep in the sunnnn. while she's at work I'll proly do laundry. i have no good clean clothes. so heres your update for today. take it or leave it. PEACEEEE

part time pop star:

trying my best to keep this thing current. I love catching up with old friends. last year on valentine's day, i met an amazing and talented person. around november of last yearm we stopped talking. I never understood why and regardless, it doesnt matter. everything has been cleared up and it's all in the past. we talked for a good half hour. longest we've ever been on the phone. it felt good. it's always good to not have any enemies. it was a good ending to my day. I saw Lydia tonight. well some of Lydia (damn phone) They played at this bar called BackBooth which is a very cute little place in downtown Orlando. I'd consider going there again. The drinks were a little pricy. haha Work is going good still. It's no Carson's and that's shocking for me to say. I've been missing it a lot lately. No idea why. It could be because it's just an easier job than it is here. Closing registers is such a process here it makes Carson's look like gravy. I don't know what it is. I took that job for granted. Aside from catching up with old friends, I finally got to talk to Georgia for an hour and a half today! I think it was talking to her that really made me miss my old job. As much as I love it here I can't wait to go back there for the first time and see everyone and see how everything has changed. It's gonna be epic I know. haha For now, it is 4:30 in the morning. I am exhausted. I have a day off today THANK GOD! and I plan on spending it laying out by the pool and possibly catching up on some reading. TTFN. (Disney reference, you'll get it if you're a Disney nut)

turn the clocks back

my alarm was set to go off at 5:45 this morning. but i've been awake since 11ish. Things here at Disney are beyond amazing. I turned 21 last week!!! It was a birthday for the books. I don't remember much. haha I think that's how its supposed to be. and ever since I've been enjoying my 21 year of life to its fullest! Candice and I discovered this place called i-bar and we're in love! Tuesdays is our day because it's Gritz and Gravy night. Oldies! Oldies! Oldies! Last night we rocked to Arethra Franklin, Michael Jackson, L-Train, The Doors and so many others! I'm still waiting to hear Elton John Bennie and The Jets. Maybe next week? Work is still amazing. Although today wasn't so good. I got an early release because I was not feeling well at all. I think some things are just starting to catch up to me and I need to start taking it easy. We'll see how long that lasts. haha The other day a little girl came up to my register to buy a my little pony box with a single pony in the box dressed in one pony outfit. now I know you're wondering (whats the big deal?) the big deal is for $18.95 you can stuff the box with as much pony shit as possible! so to get one pony and an outfit...we would have ripped that girl off. So i took her over to the pony station and we stuffed her box with everything we have for the pony (clothing, shoes, accessories) EVERYTHINGG! she was such a sweet heart. her name was aurora. so pretty i know! after we stuffed her box we went back to my register where she took out her autograph booklet and she asked me to sign it! I almost cried right there! I got to sign the same book that Mickey and the princesses did! that was by far, hands down, the sweetest thing that's ever happened to me. her mom then proceeded to take a picture of us. I felt so special and I was so thrilled to have made this family's day. I hope I see them again before they leave. I'd love a copy of that photo. I'd cherish it forever. Now I must bid you all goodbye. Today is the SALSA sale (Spend A Little Save Alot) clever I know! Hoping to score some sweet Disney merch for amazingly low prices. I must also mark my calendar. This is the earliest in my life I've started Christmas shopping. Good morning or good night. However you look at it.

Extra! Extra!

I'm trying my best to keep this thing current. My birthday is in t-minus 5 days!!!! I cannot wait! The big 21. I picked up some hours today at work. ye$$$$$$$$! Haha I started looking around for potential christmas gifts for friends and family and let me just say I better start saving some dinero. Work was such a joy today. I got to play with so many little kids and made their day a little bit more magical. I had to keep back the tears like 5 different times. I still can't believe that I'm here and I'm living like this right now. My neighbors are gonna be in town for a few days and I'm so excited to see them! I met a lady from Illinois and I told her to say hi to the beautiful state for me. It was bittersweet.

Broken promises

I'm sucha shit. I said I was gonna update this thing more now that I'm in Orlando but I haven't since I got here! In my defense I've been working my butt off! Work is going really well. I'm done training and I'm officially a member of Once Upon a Toy! Yayyy! Haha I've made some great friends since I've been here and its been non-stop fun for the past two weeks. It baffels us walking around the parks looking at all the guests and knowing that we didn't pay anything to get in. Its a good feeling. There aren't an abundance of cute guys which sucks. But we're hoping to find some once I turn 21 which is in 8 days BTW. Haha Today is Sunday which means industry night at HOB. Candice, Melanie and I plan to lay out for a while at the pool before I have to go to work at 3:30. Hopefully it will be busy because of labor day and the day will go by quick. Pray for me!

Btw. The Blink 182 show was a complete success! Christina and I managed to get the barricade on Tom Delonge's side and we even got our limited edition t-shirts. Best concert ever thus far in my history of concerts! RIP DJ AM!

I'm not even excited about Blink 182 anymore. I've got one friend freaking out over the size of the pit in which we were fortunate enough to get tickets for and another who one minute says she doesn't care what time we get there but then complains when I tell her what time we're planning on getting there. And I'm stuck in the middle. So right now, I'm leaving all technology at home. Not gonna respond to any texts or emails until I'm nearly done packing for the day. How's that for suspension? For now, I'm going to get some breakfast with my grandma and mom. Hoping to score some dinero for Florida from my grandma. haha Here's hoping!

Keeping my promise.

Trying my very best to keep this updated. Today we're going to dinner for my mom's birthday. We're going to this place called Cheesburgers in Paradise. We'll see how that goes with me and my no-meat journey. It's been three months and I haven't had any meat! I leave for Florida in three days! I can't believe it! And the Blink 182 concert is in 2 days! So pumped! I'm gonna go ape-shit. Anywho, we've reached our destination: Cheesburgers in Paradise. Pray for some bocas!

woahh

It's been forever since I've updated. I guess I kind of forgot I had this. oh well. Who reads it anyway?! This summer has been such a roller coaster ride. It started off super boring because I was in summer school. But I passed both of my classes THANK GOD! I saw a few good movies like The Hangover and Harry Potter. I really wanna see 500 Days of Summer, Julie&Julia and I still have to see Transformers 2. But it looks like I have to wait till thats out on DVD. Christina and I went to Six Flags and saw Gym Class Heroes, The Academy Is... and Boys Like Girls. So much fun. Except if I ever go back I'm not bringing a bag with all my shit. They make you buy a locker for a dollar and lock everything up if you wanna ride a roller coaster. Big money sucker. haha Oh well. The show was fun. Boys Like Girls played last which baffled me and Christina. Oh well. Does anyone else think that Paul from BLG is a total babe? haha Warped Tour was fun. Pretty sure this will be my last summer doing Warped. The line-up was okay this year but eh. Idk I think I might be getting over that whole thing. We'll see how I feel about it next year. The funnest part of Warped was getting to do catering. We'd never done it before and it was so fun getting to serve all the bands their food. Christina and I made smoothies and everyone seemed to like them. Even Alex Gaskarth of All Time Low drank one! haha And because we did catering we got to be side-stage for All Time Low. It was an amazing experience. We also go to meet Craig Owens again. He is always so humble and sweet. I don't understand why people hate on him all the time. He's an absolute joy to be around. Now, it's nearing the end of another day (August 11, 2009) to be exact. I'm still recovering from Lollapalooza. Christina and I went this weekend and it was by far the funnest Lollapalooza EVER! It rained so hard on the first day but that didn't stop us. We saw Hockey, Manchester Orchestra, Asher Roth, and KINGS OF LEON! I was blown away by how amazing Kings of Leon were! They sound EXACTLY like their album. Afterwards we got to go to the Arctic Monkeys afterparty. As tired as I was I enjoyed it the best I could. They sang I Bet You Look Good On The Dance Floor so I was satisfied. Saturday we saw Miike Snow, Atmosphere, Coheed and Cambria, Rise Against and The Yeah Yeah Yeahs. But my favorite day hands down was Sunday. The KILLERS! I was amazed. They opened with Human and everyone went nuts. I don't think I've ever had as much fun as I had during their set. Snoop Dogg was so much fun too and we also saw Vampire Weekend and The Airborne Toxic Event. I feel like I'm going a mile a minute talking about this weekend. There was so much going on I don't wanna forget anything! I leave for Florida in 4 days and it's almost surreal. I'm not nervous at all. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing. Alright enough rambling. I'm going to watch Conan because aparently Cobras are gonna be on it. Hopefully I'll keep up with this more often so their not as lengthy as this post is. Goodnight!

the countdown is over.

I'm headed to Bamboozle tomorrow morning. I'm so pumped. My anxiety is starting but only when I really think about it. Pray for safe travels. Today Roger, Jay and I are going to Fat Burger since our LIT class is cancelled. I'm just waiting for Jay to get outta class. I don't really have too much to chat about. Things are all set for Florida. I have one more meeting and then I can START PACKING! haha not really cause its 4 months away but still. I'm pumped. For now, I leave you with a picture from Bamboozle 2007. This was taken at a Photofinish Records tent. Photofinish records is the label responsible for Envy on the Coast, Danger Radio, and 3OH!3. I'd say it's the best picture of the weekend:

so little time...

Sorry for lack of update. Like anyone really reads this. It's just a good way to keep track of the many exciting days in my world. School has been ever consuming my life. I've been writing paper after paper after paper. ughhh. But the semester's almost over! and thenn comesss SUMMERRRRR...school! haha yes summer school. can't wait...NOT. haha yesterday I saw The Academy Is... at Lewis University. It was one of the most amazing shows I've seen them do. Butcher was on bass because Sisky hurts his hand and couldn't play. It was nice seeing bill on the acoustic tour but nothing beats the full band. it wasn't the same without sisky but it was just as enjoyable. Next weekend I'm going to Bamboozle! I can't believe it's finally here!

southside pride

Baseball is back and I couldn't be happier. Yesterday I woke up and went to work thinking it would fly by! Boy was I wrong. I had to work in a different department and it went by sooo slowww. 6 of the longest hours of my LIFE! I think it was from the stress of that day that caused me to get a headache. I shook it off and headed home. Danielle met me at my house and we headed out to the game. The closer we got to the Cell the worse I started to feel. While we're driving to the field I realize that I left my cell phone at home. Greeeat. haha we make it to our seats just in time to see the game start. I still feel like shit. As the game goes on I start to feel worse. Then I realize something else. I left my ipod sitting out in my car. Greaaaat. Thankfully it wasn't stolen. Finally, I couldn't handle being there anymore and we left in about the 5th inning. While we're walking down the ramp I realize that my keys are gone! I couldn't remember if I left them in the car or not. So they were either locked up or stolen. We had to go to the guest services section and have them call security to get the car open. Basically it was not my day. and it wasn't the Sox day either because they lost. But Scott Mcntyre (sp?) went home on American Idol last night. Another week for my boy Anoop to KILL IT!

i'm not a cry baby...

I just got a phone call from my dear friend Danielle. She got accepted to the Disney College Program and it is official. We will be living in Florida for 5 months working for the man with the big ears. I'm officially pumped. Life right now is so amazing. School is going really well. With the exception of Geogolgy I'm doing really well. I have my classes picked out for summer and it's gonna be an amazing year. Tomorrow I'm going to see Craig Owens at Mojoes. I'm pretty pumped. The next week Friday and Saturday I'm seeing the Snakes and Suits tour with The Academy Is... (Bill and Sisky) Evan Taubenfield (sp?) and Empires. I cannot wait. The White Sox season 2009 starts on Monday. Root root root root Whiiiiite Soxxx! yess! ahah but I'm soo excited for everything. I love being excited. It's contagious.

lack of update.

my apologies. work and school have pracitically been running my life. I've also been doing a lot of preparation for disney. i dont leave until august but theres a lot of things that need to be done before then. not too much has been going on otherwise. christina and i saw Valencia a few weeks ago. christina was guestlisted and i tagged along. we had to pass out stickers. kind of awkward. you'd think people would want free stuff but there were some that were just like noo. haha i'm really bummed i'm not going to see katy perry tomorrow. maybe i'll get to see her in florida. my friend roger has a show tomorrow at mojoes. so if you're like me and couldn't get katy perry tickets in time you should check him out. he's really talented.

keep it up...

2 days in a row now in which I am capable of driving with the windows down and my favorite shades on...

keep it up mother nature...keep it up.

btw, I got the job at DISNEY WORLD!

three months later

throughout these last three months i've learned that patience is a virtue. i've become a much more patient person in these hard times (except on senior day, I'm still working on that). It was almost exactly three months ago that I saw Fall Out Boy. I haven't been to a show since. It's nice to kick off the new concert year with such a good line-up. We The Kings, The Maine and The Cab. And I'm feeling very optimistic about VersaEmerge and There For Tomorrow. I'm really excited to return to Chubby Rain House of Tunes. That place is one of my favorites.

It's really cold outside which is a bummer. I think my dad said it was like in the teens. Not cool. But I hope it's not that bad at the venue. We should be getting there around doors so hopefully we wont be in the cold for too long.

I really can't think of anything else to talk about except how stoked I am for this and I haven't had Taco Bell in forever and Christina and I always get it after a show so it'll be nice to savor the flavor. haha okay I'm done.

I can tell that we are gonna be friends...

This past week has been surprisingly good. I'm sitting at my computer right now (obviously) and I keep hearing the sound of rain falling on my roof and side of the house. Here I think it's raining. Turns out its not and there's still a ton of disgusting show on the ground. Someone kill me. Last Tuesday Danielle and I went to a meeting about the Disney College Program. I really hope we both get in. I can just picture myself living in Florida for a while. My work hours are finally starting to pick back up. THANK GOD! I need the money! haha We The Kings and The Maine are next week. It feels like it's taken forever to get here! And I get the feeling that this week is gonna go by quick because we don't have classes on Thursday. So I get a nice little week off of school. haha The oscars are tonight. I'm watching them with my mom. I never really get to see all the movies that are nominated for the big categories but this year I saw Slumdog Millionaire and it was ABSOLUTELY INCREDIBLE! I hope it wins everything.

flash before my eyes

so it has recently been brought to my attention that I may have S.A.D. (seasonal affective disorder) which basically means that I get super bummed during the winter months. I did a little research on webmd and I really think I have it. It really sucks. I wish I could live somewhere where it's sunny all year round. Although I wouldn't miss a summer in Chicago. Not for anything. So basically I have to learn to deal with it. Next winter hopefully I'll be in Florida working at the happiest place on earth and loving some sun while Chicago is frozen and depressing. Pray for me. The concert calendar is booking up now I just need to wait for the kick off. March 1st. God it's taking forever to get here! I can't wait to see The Cab for the first time! And to see We The Kings and The Maine again...I'll just feel complete I know it. AIRBORNEEEE! haha that's really all for now. I pray these next two weeks go by quickly.

At lastttttt...

Freaking out.

The end.

I'll do what I want.

the first time i ever wrote a journal for my buzznet i wrote about the grammys and how much it sucked. i remember saying how much of a popularity contest it is and how they aren't really that up to date on the artists they nominate. i mean seriously, Paramore for Best New Artist in 2008 when they've been touring their asses off since 2005? Oh! and Hey There Delilah being nominated when that song was realeased in what like 2004? 2005? Now this year the Jonas Brothers are nominated for Best New Artist and they blew up in when late 2007? So shouldn't they have been nominated in 2008? Does any of this make sense? Anywho. I will be watching this year. But only because of the rumored Blink 182 presenting an award reunion. Which if that happens I will most likely burst into tears and my mom will think I'm a total weirdo.
Lately I've been listening to Hanson and Simple Plan. Two totally different bands in two totally different times. But both having a huge impact on my life. Both have been a huge favorite at one point in my life and both I have never really had the privelege of seeing perform. I mean I saw Simple Plan at Warped Tour 2004 but I was more pre-occupied fighting for my life than actually paying attention to what they were playing. I couldn't name a single song they sang that day. haha So it has now become a personal goal for me this year to see both bands live. I was looking at Hansons myspace and lately they've been doing this 2 mile walk or something along those lines to raise money for shoes to send to people in africa. i hope i got that right. basically they walk around barefoot to raise awarness and get people to donate money for shoes for people in africa. i thought that was really cool. so basically if they ever come to chicago i'm deff. going to do the walk and maybe hopefully bring shoes to donate. if they accept donations. it's so crazy to think that 13 years ago i was 7 years old and obsessing over zac hanson and wanting to marry the guy. it will deffinately be an accomplishment to meet hanson. i hope that dream finally comes true...

well. it's grammy time. pray it wont be more commercial and ridiculous than last year. but we all know that it will.

here's how we do.

So today I saw He's Just Not That Into You. Seriously so cute. Except I hate Scarlett Johanssen. So that was a bummer. The best part of today was wearing flip flops out and driving with my windows rolled down. I hope it stays like this for a while.

Doc there's a hole where something was

I really miss summertime. I really just can't stand winter. My wardrobe isn't fit for winter. I'd rather be in a dress and flip flops. Layering sucks! I've been getting these really brutal headaches lately. Which sucks. I don't know if it's because I'm sleeping too much or too little. Lately I've been obsessing over Christian Bale. haha We watched the movie Equilibrium in my philosophy class the other day and he's in it. WOO sexy mann. haha. They announced more bands for Bamboozle today. SOO excited! Demi Lovato is gonna be there so I'm pumped. I'm really looking forward to No Doubt as well. I remember listening to them when I was in like 1st grade! I made my mom buy me Tragic Kingdom because my older cousin had it and I wanted to be just like her when I was little. There's also a lot of rumors going around about Blink 182. PLEASE LET THEM BE TRUE! I wasn't going to watch the Grammy's but if they're presenting then I have to watch right?! haha Duh. Plus I wanna see if Lil' Wayne takes home all 8 awards. That'd be amazing. I really don't want the Jonas Brothers to win best new artist either. I just don't think they deserve it. Maybe last year they would of been better suited for the award. I just feel like the Grammy's aren't up-to-date with music as they'd like us to believe.

I can't stop listening to the new Fall Out Boy record. It's really starting to grow on me. Can't wait to see them again.

So, one of my friends, I've noticed, is starting to change a bit. I don't know how to handle it. What would you do?

groundhogggg dayyyy

i never understood the way ground hog day works. if he sees his shadow then 6 more weeks of winter correct? if not then only 4 weeks right? ughhh i wish i knew. whatever the rules are i hope we have less winter and spring comes in ohh like MARCH! my life...and i hate to admit this....has been so dull since the new year. i havent' gone to any shows and all i basically do is work, school and sleep. sometimes in that order. they've been cutting lots of hours at work so i've had a lot of days off. which is great for doing my homework but what do i do when the homework runs out? haha Ludo is playing the metro on wednesday and i really wanna go but idk. i dont think i can afford it right now. ughh my next show isn't until march 1st when we the kings and the maine come to poplar grove. thats gonna be so much fun. its a little mini road trip. christina comes home this weekend. a perfect weekend too because im off work all weekend. (and that only happens when hours get cut.) haha otherwise I'm their slave all weekend. so we're going to see He's Just Not That Into You. it looks SO FUNNY! haha and i miss my friend so it'll be good to see her for a while. maybe we'll get some fat burger afterwards. WHO KNOWS! haha

pay it forward...

so today i was back at work. it started off miserable. my boss lectured me about things I cared nothing about and the customers were incredibly annoying...until one came along. i met this lady who was buying two Guess jackets for her daughters. she asked my opinion on the two and i told her they were gonna love them. one of the jackets was a leopard faux fur jacket. I told her she made a good choice and that the leopard jacket was my absolute favorite and i was in love with it. after finishing her purchase i bagged her items and she was on her way. about 5 minutes later she came back with another leopard jacket and said she wanted to get another one for her older daughter so they wouldn't fight over which jackets they liked. she asked me what size i wear because i was the same size as her daughter. i rang it up and the reciept printed out i asked her if she wanted the new jacket in the same bag as the others. she told me the jacket was for me. at first i thought she was kidding. but she was serious. i told her i couldn't accept that that it was too much. and she started to walk away and was serious about giving me the jacket. i mean this jacket was $90! NINETY FREAKING DOLLARS! i couldn't just accept it. but she gave me a hug and just left. i was so overwhelmed with emotion i started crying. that has got to be the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me. so i'm making it a mission to a.) find this woman and give her gifts up the wazoo and b.) pay it forward. have you ever seen that movie pay it forward? its so good. it starts helen hunt kevin spacey and hayley joel osment. but its basically about people doing nice things for strangers and hoping they'll do the same by paying it forward. so I need some ideas. got any?

my mother...

wants to make a fucking facebook?
like. is this a jokeeeee?
can I go die now?

what would you do if your mother goes will you help me make a facebook?
IS SHE HIGH?!
That's what I thought.
I understand there's no "age limit" on what you can and can't do on the internet (except visit porn sites obv.) but seriously. there are just some invisible lines that aren't meant to be crossed. wasn't facebook created by a college guy for college kids? i mean, i used to have a teacher in high school that had a facebook and a few months into his first year teaching he deleted it!

So I'm pretty much ashamed of my own mother. It's been a great week.

backkk to school

School started up again yesterday. I was late to my 8 am because of the ridiculous amount of snow. I couldn't find a parking spot so I parked in a faculty spot. You'd think with it being the first week of school and things being as hectic as they are that they MVPD would be a little understanding? Nope! I got a $25 parking ticket. What a joke! So I was pretty pissed about that. But regardless. My classes all seem amazing. I don't know how I'm going to get through my 8 am Geology class. It's gonna be brutal. I don't know anyone but I'll manage. My Literature class seems really fun and my teacher reminds me of Jack from Will and Grace. I don't know if he's actually gay though. haha I also really like that class because I actually have some CUTIES! haha Yayy something to look forward to. haha Finally my philsophy class. I think I'm going to enjoy this the most. My old friend Danielle from my photography class two semesters ago is in it with me and it'll be nice to know someone. Possible cuties in this class as well.

So it's been decided that I'm 85% sure I'm going to Bamboozle. But I'm pretty postive that I'm going 100% for sure. I'm so excited!

hello 2009

I just want to start this blog off by saying I cannot wait for 2009 to change my life. I feel so optimistic about this new year and I've never felt so excited and postive for a new year to start. So far I've been keeping up with my new years resolutions. I know it's only been 4 days but I feel like it can only go up from here. It's been 4 days without meat or cigarettes. And those two things are probably two of the hardest things for me to give up since I've been so used to having them on a daily basis. A lot of people have been asking me...why meat? and I really can't answer that question. I just don't see the point in eating an innocent animal. So shut up and support me with my decision okay? Today Melinde and I are going tanning and to work out. I haven't seen her in a while so it'll be nice to catch up. I read Bill Beckett's blog the other day and he mentioned some touring news within the next week. If TAI goes on tour I will be the happiest girl in the world and I just might die a little. TAI still gives me that happy feeling whenever I listen to them and I can't help but smile. No other band has had that effect on me. I hear songs like Almost Here and Summer Hair=Forever Young and I just can't help but remember some of the greatest days of my life. Well, I'm off to enjoy the rest of my day. You should do the same.