i'm yours tonight.

if you're a girl like me you have that one dream. the dream where you're watching a band and a member will just look at you and fall in love. i still wait for that day. sometimes i feel like its not too far away and others i feel it's unreachable.

the all time low concert was so much fun! i thoroughly enjoyed myself. I felt like a total grandma because everyone else was 16 and under. we met some of the members of hey monday and we the kings afterwards. cassadee is so sweet! and jersey remember the photograph from the house of blues ^^ mike practically wanted to make out with us. haha just kidding. or am i? we saw Hunter from We The Kings. he was drunk and very friendly. I'm seeing the Academy Is... today. I'm so excited I might pee my pants. For now I'll just go to bed and get some rest for the day ahead of me. Oh and I have class. FUCK!

writings in the dark.

I'm sitting in my room and Blair is asleep. I'm always worried that my typing is gonna wake her. Today was an amazingly fun day. Candice's friend Matt came to visit her and we went to Animal Kingdom today. So fun. So many good pictures. It was nice to stay in the hotel with Matt and Candice for two nights. No roommates! Just good company. Tomorrow Candice and I are seeing All Time Low. I'm really excited. They've always impressed me when I've seen them. I'm considering this the first real time I'm seeing them since the only other times I have it's been at Warped Tour or Bamboozle. It'll be nice to see them indoors and in a smaller crowd. Lately I've been so lonely. I never have this problem at home. I'm surrounded by good people. And I'm not saying that I'm not surrounded by good people here because I am, but I'm ready to be loved by someone. I'm ready to let myself fall in love...

I recieved an email the other day with a wonderful piece of writing attached. To the person that sent this to me, thank you. I just wish it was someone else that sent it. I don't understand how someone I barely see and speak to can pull me in so much. There's just something about this person that I'm wildly attracted to and I haven't felt attraction like this in a very long time. To the person that sent me the email, I'm sorry. Something I did must have given you the wrong idea. My friends say I shouldn't blame myself but I can't help it.

I can't go on anymore. For now I will sleep. Tomorrow is too important of a day for me to be fussing over things I have no control over. I'm sorry again. But there are four guys that need my total and complete undivided attention tomorrow. And I'm not trying to make myself sound like a whore. It's just the band and I've been waiting for this day since I arrived here in Orlando. I finally get to see what House of Blues is made of. Is it better than Chicago...I'll let you know.

worlds away

Today was such a good day at work! Too many laughs. When I got home there was a letter waiting for me from Melinde. So good to hear from her. Pen palsss! haha I'm currently listening to the AP Podcast of the 2009 AP tour. Part of me wishes I saw a show on this tour. Oh well. Things at Disney are good again. I'm not sick anymore which is AWESOME! haha I felt like I was on my death bed! I can't wait for Tuesday. Candice and I are having a Candice and Ashley day since I was un-able to have it last week for her bday. I planned an amazing surprise that I know she'll love! More on that later. Also, I'm stoked to go back to i-bar on Tuesday. It's been a week too long. I'm actually starting to get a little homesick. :( I miss my mom and dad and of course my bro. And most importantly...my cat! haha There's a stray that I've been taking care of down here but she doesn't compare to Hershey. Hershey lets me cuddle with her! haha I also kinda miss my old work family. Don't miss the actual job. haha Don't miss the customers. haha But I'm really missing the peeps. baha. Candice and I have two shows we're going to next week. All Time Low and The Academy Is... I'm really excited for both. Hoping to get some new pics with the TAI boys. I'll post of course. Candice is on her way. Haven't seen her in a while! Laterrrr!

Speechless

I guess I could have updated before the insanity began. My apologies. This past Monday evening, I came down with the flu. Had a fever, body aches, the usual. It is now Saturday morning and I'm still running fevers and I've got a whole mess more of problems on my list. We're talking sore throat and ears, hives from my medicine and a pain that makes it so hard to walk and sit down. On top of it all, my roommates aren't helping at all. They show little to no concern over my illness and continue to leave our apartment in a messy state. How hard is it to clean up after yourself? Its 2am on Saturday and there is still spilt brown sugar on the counter from a pie that was made yesterday morning! How old are we? I truly feel the only reason I've not begun to see a change in my health is because I live with slobs. So tomorrow I think I'm gonna talk to my parents about getting a cheap hotel for two nights to try and relax and heal in peace. I'll let you know how that goes. Till then...

"There's a light on in Chicago and I know I should be home"