our days were numbered by nights.

photobooth photo ^^

I'm sitting in Candice's room waiting for her to get ready, we're going to Magic Kingdom for a while. We saw Cartel last night and I ran into one of the guys at the bar later in the evening. I don't remember much of our encounter but I'm sure I made a fool of myself. I've been made a fool of a lot lately and I don't know why I don't defend myself more. From here on out no more. Don't get me wrong I will stand up for myself but there are some people who I should stand up to and don't. i can't explain it.

I lost my ID and Credit Card at the bar last night. and can't get a hold of anyone who may know if it's still at the bar. i hate waiting and being in anticipation. it's awful. hopefully it can be recovered.

for now....off to magic kingdom.

everything's magic

the beauty of the holidays is beinging to sweep over Disney. The castle is decorated and all of the parks have shit EVERYWHERE! it makes me really homesick. I need to start shopping for everyone. I found the PERFECT gift for my mom. I'm so excited to get it for her and I think she'll really like it.

I get to chat with Christina tomorrow. our lives are so crazed we have to schedule phone calls!

I don't understand why I always get stuck with duds. When I went to Eastern, the roommate I was with turned on me. And now, we don't speak. This time around, there are five of them, soon to be four, and I can't penetrate their bond. I'm days away from possibly having a room to myself! I don't want to get my hopes up but it could happen. That makes me wonder, will I always be in a room by myself? Is it me that can't be lived with? It's possible. I'm a clean, mature, responsible person. Is that a hard combo to deal with?

Candice and I went to ibar this past Thursday. So fun. I met a guy there named Stuart. He was a cutie. I hope I see him again on Tuesday. Betsy turned 21 so she can finally join us for Gritz and Gravy nights!

I'm procrastinating this paper I have to write, but it's time to get down to business.

expirations

Can't log into the SLH website because my subscribtion expired. Damn. I can't afford to renew it right now. So I'll have to live without updates for a few months. Thanksgiving is in a few weeks. It's going to be weird not seeing my family. Or meeting my new cousin. I get to work at my store tomorrow! I'm really excited about it. There's not much to update on. We've just been enjoying our time here. Lately I've been paranoid that I wont be able to afford gifts for my family for xmas. That means I need to cut back on spending money on stupid things like food I don't need. Bye bye Mickey D's! haha And less drinks at the bar of course. :( haha. I'll have to start getting other people to buy my drinks from now on. Wish me luck.

maybe its a fall from grace

tonight candice and i saw cobra starship and boys like girls. so good. we met alex suarez, bryan donahue, and nick santino, all from different bands, all pretty cool. candice has been sick the past few days. hopefully she's back to normal soon. I'm currently trying to get all the TAITV episodes for her so she has some awesome entertainment for the next few days while she's stuck in bed. I'm working at Pooh Corner this week but according to my boss I'll be going back to my original store next week. I've been on such an emotional roller coaster all over a stupid work location! its just, working at this Pooh Corner really makes me think horrible thoughts. it just brings out the bad in me. it brings out someone that I left back in Illinois at Carson Pirie Scott. I'm not ready to go back to being that person just yet. I'm not sure if I want to go back at all. This program has gone by so quickly! I can't believe it's already November! I basically have a month left here! I'm so torn between wanting to stay and wanting to go. i feel like this is sort of home now. but, I'm actually excited to go back home and experience this thing called snow that floridians just dont get, and im excited to start school again. i'm really happy with the classes i picked out and hopefully I get them come registration time. i cant wait to see all my friends and family and even set foot into my old job and see everyone. it will all be bittersweet. until then, I'm going to enjoy the rest of my time here.

This was taken outside the House of Blues in Orlando. Doesn't he just look so happy to see me?! haha He made fun of my jersey cause Grossman doesn't play for the Bears. But he was happy I was showing support for the home team. We almost convinced him and Mike to come out to i-bar with us but they had an early bus call that day. Major bummer. Candice really enjoyed herself. I'm glad. We were second row for the show stuck behind the most hyper-active of girls you could ever imagine. Pandemonium. I went to the meet and greet by myself. Talk about awkward turtle. Only really talked to Butcher, Mike, and Bill. Oh well. Afterwards we went to I-bar and I truly think it was the most fun we've all had there ever. I probably say that alot but it was a genuine good time.

It looks like rain outside. Better bring out the umbrella.

I've very much enjoyed my time here in Orlando. But lately I've been having these vivid flashbacks. Its always the same kind. I'll flashback to the same place. I'll see the same faces. For the past two and a half weeks. I was working at a store here different than my normal toy store. The store is called Pooh Corner and it deals mainly with Winnie the Pooh merchandise and CLOTHING! At first I had only been there one day a week or not at all. But now its becoming all day. Working at this store has caused me to not only have crazy flashbacks, its causing me to revert back to my old mean self. I'm not a friendly person when I'm at this store. It has been such a tease for me to have worked at Once Upon a Toy if now all I'll be doing is working at this new store. I don't know what else I could say that makes sense or something understandable. Basically, I could make $2 more back home doing the same job I do at Pooh Corner.

I'm going back to bed. Sam's friend Carlos woke us up at 8am!

The Academy Is... was amazing btw. We almost convinced Mike and Bill to come out to the bar with us.