time: it moves fast and slow

I cannot believe that August is nearly here! Where has this year gone? I'll be 22 in a month and a half!

I shut myself away from the world for the last day and a half. No response to the outside world. It's just what I need. I'm considering extending it longer.

I can't believe that it's been almost a whole year since my life changed completely. A whole year since I became the happiest I've been in my 21 years of living. I haven't been the same since I've come home. Not even close. I've had my days where I legitimately appreciate being here. But my heart belongs somewhere else.

This past week has really fucked me up.

People fucking with my emotions. My trust. My mind. My life.

I'm not listening to anyone but myself anymore.

So impose as many opinions you'd like. It's not gonna make a damn difference to me.

the distant future

When I fall in love with someone and that someone falls in love with me, I want them to make me a mix cd of all songs that remind them of me. Preferably with these tracks:

All Time Low - Remembering Sunday
The Academy Is... - About a Girl
Kings of Leon - Closer
The Maine - I Must Be Dreaming
This Providence - That Girl's a Trick
Paramore - The Only Exception
New Found Glory - Hold My Hand
Boys Like Girls - Thunder

and so on and so forth.

yaknowthecutesongs.

just saying. if you're out there. do something like this for me.

summer love

Current Mood: relaxed
Current Emotion: excited/happy
Currently most looking forward to: my best friend coming home for a whole month!
Currently rocking: Paramore - brand new eyes
Currently:

I've been enjoying these two days off of work by doing absolutely nothing! Sitting around, watching dvds, playing old school N64, saving money.

When I went to Florida, I worked one shift at Downtown Disney. I never recieved a paycheck for it. I spent hours and weeks making phone calls, leaving voicemails, sending facebook messages, etc. Finally I got some answers. Due to a costuming error, I should be recieving a check in the mail for wayy more than the time I should be paid for that one shift. Reason number 2941 why I love the Walt Disney Company. :)

Back to relaxing.

I know that there's a place for me somewhere...out there.

I believe in balance. Giving to recieve. I believe in equality. I believe in happiness and love. Friendship.

Stopping there.

Friendship. That word rings in my ears a lot these days. What is a friend? Have I really witnessed true friendship? Have I recieved as much as I've given? Did I give too much? Did I give too little? Did I care too much or too little?

I am selfless.

Ask anyone that knows me and they will tell you. I will do anything for people.

Here's my problem: I don't think people do nearly enough for me.

I don't know how important I am to you.

Tell me.

promotion.

Check this girl out. We met her at Bamboozle Roadshow this past weekend. She's so down to earth and has some sweet merchandise.

not even guilty.

My time here in Orlando has come to an end. I'm not looking forward to going home. And to be completely honest, I don't miss anyone. I mean I miss my family. But half of my friends. When I was here for five months I didn't have certain friends telling me they miss me and blah blah blah. I was gone for 5 MONTHS! Now I'm only gone a week and they want me back already. Give me a break. How about I stay here?

Tonight, I head back to ibar. For the 4th time this trip.

Let's make it last shall we?

It's happening...

Sunday is an hour away from being over. Bring Monday on! I hope it goes by so quickly I don't know what hit me. I've finally started packing. I already have 6 pairs of shoes packed. No bueno. haha but it's okay. Thanks to my mr. potato head training, I can pack that shit TIGHT! So far I picked up one shift at Pooh's Corner. And I'm so stoked about it! Remember when I hated that place? Now I can't wait to work there. Crazy how life is sometimes.

I'm not letting the outcome of my semester ruin this trip. I'm convinced that the outcome of my semester proves that I should of extended my program. But at the same time, while I should have extended, I'm glad I came home. I got to meet so many people that I don't think I would have if I stayed. One person in particular, that I know for a fact I would have never met had I stayed, he however could probably live without me. It sucks feeling that way. To be attracted to someone who couldn't really care for you.

Our new assistant manager Krista started at our store last week and we all LOVE HER! She is seriously the biggest breath of fresh air that we all needed. She's so fun, down to earth, and positive! I'm so happy that she works with us.

We all went out to Bourbon Street on Thursday. Me, Krista, Georgia, Sarah, and friends. Fun was had all around. The girls experienced me "WOOF-ing" at a guy for the first time. They loved it. Basically a guy tried to say something to us walking in the parking lot and I woofed at him before he could get a word out. He drove away so fast. bahaha. So try that next time someones bothering you. Garunteed success.

For now, I must try and sleep. I leave you with one of my favorite photos from my program. Pray that tomorrow is a quick one for me. Peace and love.